Prince Charming...sure

Being single again and trying to meet new people is frustrating. I thought I would say difficult, as in hard to start over after Tim, but truly it is FRUSTRATING.  I have met some guys, nice I am sure, just not relationship material.  I meet these guys, we talk, text, meet and hang out, only to have it all fall apart after a month.  The longest made it three months, but that has proven the exception.  By fall apart I mean a complete and abrupt halt in convesation and/or actvity. Now I don't think it is me, I think I keep up my end of things, and make the effort.  I don't want to come off as Glen Close all Fatal Attractionish nor do I want to be super aloof either.  I will make overtures of contact but after a while I just give up.  When you are the one making all the effort, it just gets tiring . I think I know when someone is no longer interested.(At least I hope I can pick up on that). 

I have meet one or two men just for fun, and that was all I expected.  I have moved on from that, as honestly, and I am being frank here, self pleasure is enough for now. Now of the men mentioned above, I have kissed one, played with one, and only talked and hung out with a few others.  I just get frustarted by having to kiss so many frogs to get a prince. Well hell some days I would take a Duke or hell even a Knight. (A Duke is below a prince and a Knight is at the bottom of a Royal heirachy- thank you Google). 

I know dating can be a ardouus process, with many ups and downs, so I have to be patient. My having patience is easier said than practiced. I have decided to remove my OKCupid profile and my Gay.com profile as well.  No more Grindr (not that I was really a fan of that app), no more Chemistry (a crappy matching system that didn't tell you that your close matches, which they always had a ton of , were 200 miles or more away before sucking you in to an overpriced monthly commitment.) Ok I might be a bit too bitter about that last one.

I think part of my frustration is that I am a bit of a romantic, thanks to the many romance movies (gay or otherwise) and stories I have endulged in over the years.  Ok I really have to rethink the recurrig day dream I have of meeting Mr. Right at a book store was we reach for the same book, or over spilled coffee at Starbucks.  Both wonderfully romantic but not as realistic as I once imagined.  Not to say I am becoming a total cynic,  I just beleive I am putting things into a better perspective.

I know I struck the love lottery when I met Tim.  The dating gods were smiling down on me the day I placed that ad in the Isthmus and he replied.  I was smitten from our first date.  I don't think I used all my luck up in meeting Tim, I just have a feeling that the dating gods can't smile down upon one all the time, they make you work a bit more the second go around. I will just let what happens happens. As I said in a prevous post, lighting may strike twice, I just have to wait, or cheat and go fly a kite in a thunderstorm.